Nightmares. I bet each of us had experienced it once in a while. Well, last week my husband was transferred to a new workplace. It's a culture in our work where you can only stay in one office for a couple of years before being transferred to another office. It was never a problem for me back then, heck, I was single and had no other responsibility other than to take care of my own self.
As you may know, Palembang is not my hometown. I moved here because I was to follow my husband. Family must stick together, right? So I left everything behind, my parents and relatives, my friends, and my old life. It was a long process, (bureaucracy, documents, etc), took more than a year to finalize before I came here. So, I can say that I had a long distance marriage, how sad does it sounds?
Fast forward, here I am having to face another reality of meeting long distance marriage. Now I have 2 young children and we are quite dependent on my husband. I was speechless when he told me that he's being transferred and I realize that my turn will come next (we work for the same institution). It's hard to believe that he's no longer going to be by my side.
Now I end up being apart from my family and my husband. All he could do is pay a visit once a week (maybe), because it's quite far and work or flight schedule could be unpredictable. I am sad, unbelievably sad and the worst thing is, I am completely helpless.
How I wish this is just a nightmare where all I need is to wake myself up and it all will disappear. But it's a reality, and I have to face it. My faith teaches me that God will never give you more than you can handle, and to tell you the truth, I have no idea how to be levelheaded when your mind is full of sadness and anger and I am not even sure if I could handle this. Having to face a hard reality surely crushes your confidence and leave you feeling overwhelmed.
I am happy he's being promoted but the selfish side of me hates for not being near him. I hate being helpless and not knowing what to do. I pray that this soon to be over and I could get my strength back. Please pray for us, and wish us luck!
Have you ever being separated with your loved one? How do you cope? How do you stay strong in difficult situation. Please share, I need tons of encouragement.
